Believe in Me

For once I would just like to be sure of something.

But I guess that can never be.

It's just how life is..a big mystery.

You can have all things planned and it can change in a blink of an eye.

But I'd like to at least have a clue.

I'm so tired of being scared.

I just want to do something to get me out of this dilema.

It feels as if I just keep sinking, and I'm slowly starting to drown.

And no matter how much cries of help I make, it seems as if no one can hear them.

Or no one is listening.

I just want to know myself.

I used to, but now I'm not so sure.

I've completely lost myself somewhere along the way.

I'm not sure if I can find it..

I just want to start to believe again.

Believe in Me.

Trust in Me.

Just be ME!

I'm so tired of pretending.

Of being someone I'm not.

Of putting up a front.

Of hiding my real thoughts and feelings.

Of hiding the real me. If that is who I am..

Cause this feeling inside me won't go away.
It just continues to eat up my heart and soul.
And I'm just in pain..and I don't know what to do.

Is it really me, or is it you?

I thought I'd never do this.

I can't believe I'm even thinking about it again.

But it's the only thing that keeps playing over and over in my mind.

I think I will give up..