The Ugly Truth p. 1

"Three things that cannot be long hidden: the sun, the moon, and the truth."
And that is so true. I'm so tired of pretending that it's ok when it's not. I'm so tired of being the one getting hurt. And I'm so tired of smiling like a hypocrite because it just continues to break my heart.

"If you keep trying to be everything you're not, you're going to miss out on who you're supposed to be."
Well, I won't anymore. Putting up a fake front is soooo tiring. And it's not worth it. The only fear and hope I have is to find the strength to be who I really am and to find out who I am.

"Sometimes it's easier to pretend than to admit that it's killing you."
It really isn't. Because pretending only kills me more. It satisfies at the beginning, but goes no where in the end.

"If you don't understand my silence, then you'll never understand my words."
What more is there to say?

"Life is full of fake people. But before you judge them, make sure you aren't one of them."
Well I won't be judging them. I know I have been a GREAT BIG FAKE with my whole life. And it's not worth it anymore.

"Advice is what we ask for when we know the answer but wish we didn't."
Well, I think it's all clear to me now. And I'm not gonna continue to stand around here and pretend everything's ok. It's time to stop listening to all those other voices and start to find mine and listen to my own.

"Only the mind can make the right decisions. But the heart decides for your happiness."
Well, listening to my heart didn't turn out quite as I expected. My happiness is causing other people's happiness, and I just can't take that. I'm not that important anyways.

"People can live one hundred years without really living a minute."
That's what I've been doing so far these past 16 years.

"You cannot hate other people without hating yourself."
I don't need to hate other people. I hate myself too much that there isn't really any hatred left for anyone else.

"Hearts are broken by words unspoken."
Then my heart is hopeless.

"I fell in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time."
What more is there to say? Oh, I can never be loved back.

"You don't die of a broken heart, you only wish you did."
Ha! Don't we all wish this was true? Cause a broken heart is enough to kill.

"Life is the art of drawing without an eraser."
But life is so messy. My easel looks like a crappy mess, not a masterpiece.

"I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone."
I guess it's just not my time yet.

"Every single person has at least one secret that would break your heart."
And sometimes, it's not just a secret.

"You never know what you have until you lose it. You always know what you have, you just never think you'd lose it."
I'm losing everything, my mind, my heart, my soul, even myself.

"Sometimes you just have to let go to see if there was anything worth holding on to."
I'm hanging by a thread. My fingers are slipping and it's slowly starting to break.

"I seldom end up where I wanted to go, but almost always end up where I need to be."
Did I need to be in this place and situation? If so, can anyone explain why?

"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile."
It's really hard at the moment. I can't even seem to find 10. Why is it that when things go wrong, we get so muddled and distracted into our problems we forget everything good in life?

"I know what I have given you. I don't know what you received."
I don't think you get it at all. Have I not given enough?

"Most of the trouble of the world is caused by people wanting to be important."
Is it so much to ask to be important in your life?

"There are two great days in a person's life--the day they were born and the day they discover why."
So far, I don't like these two days. One I wish didn't happen, and one I'm wondering if it ever will.

"All that we are is the result of what we have thought."
What was I thinking?!

"Tears are words the heart can't express."
I don't know what else there is to say.

"Be mindful of what you toss away. Be careful of what you push away. And think hard before walking away."
Do you even care? Do you still even want me? Cause I can't find anymore reason to stay.

"One of the hardest things about life is having words in your heart that you can't just seem to mutter."
The heart is so easy to give, but also so easy to hold back.

"A man's errors are his portals to discovery."
What am I supposed to be discovering through this? That I'm a horrible and selfish person who doesn't deserve anyone or anything? Thanks.

"You only live once; but if you do it right, once is enough."
Well, I am failing miserably right now. I think I lost my chance.

"Experience comes from bad judgement."
Wasn't there any other way?!

"The time is always right to do what's right."
I would love to fix this. But I don't know what to do anymore. And I don't know what's right these days.

"In seeking truth you have to get both sides of the story."
Care to share and save me?

"There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you."
But how can you tell and share something that you can't even describe to yourself?

"Everything has been said before; but since nobody listens, we have to keep going back and beginning all over again."
Wow, how true this is.

"Some people just want to run away. Not because things are bad. Or 'cause there's something to run away from. It's because there's nothing in particular that's keeping them staying."
If you want me in your life, tell me.